kakak n adik tgh mkn.. gmbr ptg semlm.. sepintas cam sama besar je dua anak dara nih.. tp kakak duduk ke bawah tuh.. duduk gaya malas/penat..
cekak tuh adik pakai sendiri.. adik nih independent.. n cuba nak naik skuter.. macam la pandai! hehe..
Fatin sgt terkejut baca Perak akan/is tukaring kerajaan negeri.. I was too occupied with my daily chores n sgt tak sempat baca berita.. cuma sesekali baca ade yg Abg tinggal dah bukak.. tade masa nak browse internet nor baca emails sgt.. ketinggalan keretapi sungguh Fatin nih.. sungguh terkejut.. politik.. itu je la Fatin leh kata.. takleh nak komen sbb tak tahu sgt citer.. Abg ade la story lebih kurang ape yg berlaku.. hmm.. macam2..
anyway rase nak tido awal hari nih.. sbb rase penat.. hehe.. td nangis dlm pelukan Abg.. lama dah act tak nangis dlm pelukan suamiku.. ntah laa.. lately maybe gak tak larat kepenatan n hormon juga tak stabil kot.. nangis kat Abg tak nak dah dok Beijing.. I'm so done living here.. after all.. iys my 6th yr dah di Beijing.. harap tak lama sgt dah lagi.. its just not easy living here.. not good place/environment juga utk anak2 kami membesar.. dok rumah jer ok laa.. tp skang anak2 makin membesar.. perlu g sekolah.. n etc.. honestly.. maybe ramai akan fikir Farzana beruntung leh belajar international school.. yes.. Farzana beruntung.. ade peluang ini.. but she also has price to pay.. kami nih jaga supaya Farzana ok jer.. leh tahan keadaan ujian belajar kat sini.. if she survives.. she'll be very strong person.. tp Fatin sgt tak fikir its a good place for my children to grow up.. specially sbb Islam adalah cara hidup kami.. and Fatin tak nak ubah anything about it.. ade sesetgh pihak make it easy.. on food n etc.. but Fatin n Abg sgt nak jaga.. from makanan kita makan jadi darah daging kita.. juga Fatin risau byk mende lain.. Sekolah Farzana is okay.. Farzana sgt have fun kat sekolah.. suka sgt pegi sekolah.. kalu cuti pun nak g sekolah.. Farzana suka belajar and the way they teach there is learning whilst having fun.. mane la budak tak suka kan.. dan yg Fatin lebih suka.. Farzana's really catching up with her Mandarin.. Fatin sgt berharap she ade peluang utk terus belajar Mandarin smpi besar.. her Mandarin at times is better than mine.. byk je ape dia ckp Fatin tak faham.. but Abg does.. simple Mandarin.. tp mane la Mama nak tahu since Mama tak expose kan.. and Fatin byk kali dgr org kata kat Fatin her pronunciation is correct.. wallahualam.. dont ask me.. mine is very lousy.. huhu.. tp there were 2 times, Farzana came back from school and said she doesnt want to go school.. honestly Fatin lupa dah camne first one went.. but second one.. she said I'm sick.. I dont want to go to school.. and what happened? Since we've been very strict on her food taking.. she can never take other food.. other ppl's food.. so bila ade wat birthday celebration.. yups.. teachers' birthday party.. friends, moms dorang bawak kek n macam2 lagi laa.. Farzana will be sitting all alone n eat what ever I packed for her.. usually she wont eat unless she's hungry.. sian tak? Fatin sian sgt tau.. the last time it happened.. they're having ice cream cake.. and her friends were asking Laura.. "Can she have it?" Laura said.. Farzana was funny that day.. She was like.. "What? Me? Not me!" and everyone laughed.. but then.. she was sitting at the back all alone after wishing happy birthday to birthday girl n even ayi joined the ceremony.. leave her alone.. (this from Farzana story.. Ayi pun g la makan.. kakak duduk la sorg2.. kakak makan ape mama bekal.. berjurai air mata Fatin masa dgr citer dia.. It was tough for her.. a liltle girl who's only 4!) everyday dia sorg makan bekal.. n kekadang cikgu lambat/lupa letak bekal dia.. it happens even in front of me.. ye laa.. dah cikgu nak kene serves the rest of 10 students.. and Farzana lain drpd org lain.. day by day.. she can accept this.. as for my role.. I'll just make sure her food is always or most of times things she'll like to take.. nutrious... varieties.. but still things she likes.. sbb Farzana susah sikit bab makan.. and mujur juga sbb dia susah makan.. so dia tak cepat terliur makanan org lain.. n byk kali cikgu2 bgtau Fatin kwn2 dia suka tgk ape bekal dia n cam sedapnya bekal Farzana.. recently, m working with Laura, her leading English teacher.. Laura ajar Farzana suh share her food with her friend.. and in that way.. Farzana akan happier eating her food.. I keep saying to Laura n other teachers.. I dont mind Farzana's sharing her food.. as long as she's eating them.. tp Farzana tak boleh mkn makanan kwn2 dia.. ye laa.. kang dah biasa sgt.. syok.. tukar2 pula.. Fatin nih.. kalu Fatin boleh.. mmg Fatin g dah wat spot check on how Farzana's eating kat sekolah.. cuma myself limited, dgn Farizah.. she needs my attentions too.. maid lagi.. belum fully train that I can just leave everything to her.. (for house chores thingy only) then lain yg Fatin risau cam.. ye laa.. dia pun dah makin liat sikit solat.. bila tarik solat.. sambil solat mulut pot pet ckp sorg2 bercerita.. (yes, at times she talks alone..) Iqra' lagi.. Fatin pun malas sekarang.. hmm.. so.. mane la Fatin tak risau.. sedangkan.. Mengaji Quran adalah tanggungjawab yg mesti ibu bapa buat.. in Islam..
Fatin kene stop.. nak buat muffin pagi nih.. utk bekal Farzana.. gtg!
CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFINS
125 g butter
100 g sugar
150 g self-raising flour
2 tablespoons cocoa powder
25 g dark chocolate ~ melted using double boiler or microwave
Mix butter, sugar, egg, cocoa powder and flour in a mixer, then add in the melted chocolate and chocolate chips. Spoon into paper cups and sprinkle more chocolate chips on top. Bake in a preheated oven for 15 minutes on 175 degrees celcius.
Mummy Jam's note :
I used Cadbury Old Gold which are easily available in supermarket and added more for 25gm for that chocolatey taste. This muffins is for those who loves the chocolatey taste in muffins, really very rich but you can't stop at one! to me , this is one of the best chocolate muffins I ever taste! but don't just take my words for it , you just got to try it for yourself !
Mamafami's Note :
To make self-raising flour : 150g flour + 2 level teaspoons baking powder + a pinch of salt. Shift three times
p/s:- Fatin taip earlier story mlm semlm.. then bgn awal pagi samb..